I'm here, aren't I?

Hello,

Today could've been amazing, or well, today.  And it was amazing but not in the PhD writing sense.  Today I lived in the moment.  I made zerberts with Mackenzie and did Swan Lake lifts with Samara - ya know, the important things.  I worked on my paper for 45 minutes.  Good, but won't get me done in 71 days.  I think I have a few days where things might work out so that I have more time than I thought to write, but really - I don't have much room for this "amazing day with family" stuff.  But that'll stress me out.  Knowing there is some leniency is important; I just can't use that leniency as a crutch.  But... ya know. I hadn't seen the kids for about 5 days.  It was important for my hips to reacquaint themselves with Z's rear and for my ears to hear Samara's lovely made-up songs.

So, I got some stuff done.  Had I worked diligently last night and today, right now I'd be sending my advisor my draft of state one.  I'd also be more stressed out than I should be to go to my "real" first day of my new job tomorrow, where summer extravaganza's aren't allowing me to get off of work half a day early...  I'll call it a day and worry about all of this tomorrow.

All I know is that I laughed with my girls today and I still found time to get some work done.