So life, it seems is pass/fail. The bar exam - pass or fail. Even licensure exams - just meet the cut score and you're good. Well, in no way am I veering from the norm when I say that for this week, I'm striving for 50%. But it means something different for me - it means that if I meet my goal I will have completed 2 of my 4 case studies. But I AM going to strive. I'm not going to settle. For if I settle, I'd probably only meet maybe 35-40% of my goal. No, instead, I'm going to actually meet the entire 50%. This means I prepare exactly what I would submit if I had to defend the thing tomorrow, based on these 2 states alone. One week from now, I will have reached my 50% goal - yup, my F will indicate that I'm Fully prepared to move onto my 3rd of 4 states.
Today was a hard - very hard day. I'm glad I was out of the house. I'm glad I'd already done a state to know that it would get better. In fact I'm glad I'd already done a state because I could literally copy wording and formatting and resource information. But I got through it and by the end I was enjoying it.
Tonight I've reviewed my journal since May 2013. It was hard. Hard to read of the time wasted. Of the thoughts I thought were good and the disappointments along the way. Of the struggles I had only to learn I shouldn't have struggled at all. But I'm sure in some way I wouldn't be where I am in this research process if I hadn't gone through what I did.
Putting the past behind me, I'm ready to proceed. Here's to finishing State 2 and working on getting them up to publication-par.
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