I have a handful of little tidbits to share today. But I'll get to the point: I'm not doing work today (confession) because I'm dreaming of choreography (dreamer), I know I could have done at least something (slacker) but I'm completely happy where I am at this particular moment except that I have so many dance choreography ideas.
I'll make a concession - I am giving up valuable time this weekend for writing. I am also waiting for my Chair to return to this country - until he does I'm not sure of whether I'm on the right track (but don't let this fool you, it is an excuse).
And another thing: I'm loving my new job. Here's the thing - I am reading, writing, analyzing and advising 12 hours a day, at least five days a week. If I could give all of my time to my new job... wow, that'd be great. I can't right now. I have to give up about 15-20 of those hours for my dissertation. It's hard. I walk out of the office and want to continue my research. I want to wrap up one project to go to the next.
Wanna know why? I'm learning; I'm applying. I'm NOT creating. I'm NOT devising. I am finding loopholes, looking for exceptions, DO-ing. My now-Chair advised me when I started - the dissertation is looking for something new, contributing something new to academia. It is not taking what is there and applying it but it is going beyond, inventing, innovating.
And while that concept isn't foreign to me, it is something I am used to doing when I dance. I... God above, I have so many IDEAS. I want to dance. I want to feel. I want. I want. I want. And I WILL NOT GET until I finish. So I'll do it. But tomorrow (and I mean that). Tomorrow. Wrap up and move on to Ohio case study.
I think I'm on to-do list 5 or 6: Audition for a play (yup. that's what I wrote!!)
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